Stressed and Depressed

Sometimes, there are times when you gotta go easy on yourself.

I rarely do that.

I always think self-care means self-indulgence, being lazy, letting yourself slack. Because I am lazy and self-indulgent and if I can slack, trust me, I slack. But going into this week I knew it was going to be tough (I will not bore you with the details) and I knew I was going to feel stressed and have obsessive thoughts.

I told myself: that’s not an excuse. You need to come home and write!!!

The only thing is, I notice that nights I write feel longer. Even the weekend, when I set aside those 6 precious hours of writing, feel longer. Usually, that’s great. But I don’t want the days to feel longer right now. I just want to get to the day I gotta get to, and get there in one piece.

So, until that day comes, it’s Youtube and reading. And I’m not gonna feel bad about it.